Hey Guys, need some motivation

So I'm a trans diabetic guy. I've been taking pretty shitty care of my diabetes for the last few years and now, I can't start hormone therapy until I get my a1c down (I'm currently at 11 :///)

I just need some help here. No one I know is diabetic. I feel so lost and helpless. I did just submit for a dexcom 5 today though!

What helps motivate you guys? Besides the obvious being alive snd healthy stuff. How do you push through the hopelessness of having this disease for 20+ years and knowing it'll never get better?