I misread my insurance, now I'm basically done.

I made a mistake 6 months ago reading my insurance policy manual, and it turns out I'm not covered for a CGM because I don't have a pump. Today they finally notify me about this and how I owe $1,600. I don't know how I'm gonna pay that.

Also, besides the fact that I don't want a pump because I'm terrified of scarring and all the other pains of pumping, I can't afford both a CGM and a pump. I don't know what I'm gonna do because I'm hypoglycemic unaware, in addition to living alone and working alone every day.

I was doing okay for a while but now I don't know what to do. Things just keep getting harder and harder, without any reprieve. I keep getting more bills, I can't afford furniture for my tiny apartment or even clothes. I hate my job and I have no money for education or hobbies, let alone leisure. I can't afford therapy. There is no one in my life. I am utterly alone. It almost seems like I'm cursed or something. I just want to lie down and wait to die.