I want to die today.

I don't know if anyone will see this. Maybe it'll help to just type it.

I am in pain right now. I feel like I'm being tortured. I want to die.

I have been T2 for about 6 years. I started on metformin and quickly my doctor added Lantus and Humalog. I used everything properly until I had a job change that offered worse health care and some months could not get my insulin.

Last year, I lost my job and therefore my insurance and I haven't been able to get any more. I did briefly get some insurance through the state, but it didn't last long because I was doing temp work any way I could. I am desperately trying to get a new job (600+ applications) but haven't had luck.

I even ran out of metformin because my doctor won't give me more unless I go in, but I can't afford to go in.

I have severe nerve pain every single night and part of the day. It is such torture, I'm often rolling in my bed and begging for death (what's happening now). I also have a yeast infection that over-the-counter meds have not relieved in the slightest.

I have $75 left to my name. I am in agony most days.

I will likely end my life within the week because I can't take this anymore.

Thanks for reading.