Has your reaction to lows changed?

When first diagnosed, when I would drop too low my hands would shake a lot and I'd feel hopped up on adrenaline.

Now when I go low though, my hands don't shake. I just feel confused, it's hard to focus, my vision is almost like tunnel vision where I have to look directly at something to understand what I'm looking at, and I get sleepy (up until I get real low, then I can't sleep no matter what).

What sucks the most though is how weak mentally I get. I start thinking about a lot of bad things, like I really start missing my ex, I think about how nice it would be to die and not have to deal with T1 diabetes, I self doubt myself a lot and think I can't do anything or maintain any relationships with other people.

Basically a bunch of shit I really don't like, when I go low.