Im 42 and was diagnosed T2 about 2 years ago. When I was first diagnosed I started taking metformin, jumped right on board with a healthy diet and exercising and my blood sugar numbers quickly got under control. Fast forward to now and I’m intentionally choosing foods I know I shouldn’t, drinking way too much and not taking my medication regularly and my blood sugars are now routinely in the 3-400s. I know this is bad. I know what I’m supposed to eat and how to exercise. I know what the consequences of my bad decisions are. Even knowing these things I still consciously make bad decisions because As stupid as it sounds it just isn’t fair. I love cooking and baking and showing my family love through food. It’s what we do. I know I shouldn’t care so much about food or drinking, but I do. I’m so frustrated with this diagnosis and don’t know how to change my stupid line of thinking. I feel deprived and angry when I think about all of the things I shouldn’t be doing anymore. All the things that brought me happiness are now supposed to be off limits. And it just fucking sucks.
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