The past couple days I've been so f***ing frustrated... before now my blood sugars where mostly ok, I would get a lot of lows and if not I was normally within my rang of 100-180. I thought I was doing ok for being a newbie. 3 weeks ago when I saw my endo and it was confirmed I'm type 1, I talked to her about wanting to go off metformin. I was put on metformin when I got diagnosed almost a year ago and it was a misdiagnosis of type 2. A couple months before this appointment my primary dr ran a c-peptide test and said it was type 1 so I already knew that before I ever saw my endo, but my endo wanted labs of her own to confirm. After my endo confirmed it was t1 she said I can stop the metformin if I wanted too because it wasn't needed. I did want to stop it because while I was taking it I was constantly up and down. If I didn't eat something every 2 hours I would fall low, it happen so much that I don't feel my lows anymore. So I was happy to finally get the ok to stop taking it. My endo also lowered my daily insulin and I started birth control. My blood sugar were about the same except I wouldn't drop as much, and my bg levels would come down more slowly. But as of a few days ago I don't know what I'm doing wrong and I feel so frustrated...
A few days ago when I checked my blood sugar before dinner I was at 112, ok. So I counted the carbs and injected correctly. When I checked my blood 2 hours after dinner it was 145. I thought ok not too bad. I checked my blood sugar several hours later before bed and it was 141. I was a little confused because normally I've started to come down a lot more by now, and what I ate I've had before and it doesn't normally hang on that long. But I thought I'd be ok and went to bed before I normally drop quite a bit in my sleep.
When I checked my blood sugar in the morning it was 148! This was upsetting to me and I didn't understand why it won't leave the 140's. I remember the strips I was using I got off Amazon for extra. So I opened a fresh thing of strips I just picked up from the pharmacy to test again. I squeezed more blood out of the same spot and it test 128. Still not what I normally am in the morning (which is normally 70-100, I'm sometimes low when I wake up because I drop in my sleep). I thought well that's better I guess but still not normal... so again I gave myself enough to lower it a little bit and for my breakfast. I was feeling a bit paranoid so I did some exercise later and I over did it a little and made my self low. So I correct for that and got myself to 93. I had a snack and check 2 hours later and I was at 110, yay. When I checked before eating dinner I was suddenly at 190! I'm feeling confused and defeated so I took insulin to bring myself down and didn't eat. I checked 2 hours later and it was only 158 and took some more insulin... an hour later I when I checked again to eat it was 129. So I inject for my food and felt so defeated that I took half a metformin and ended up going low an hour after I ate. So I corrected that and got myself to 97. I went to bed and when I checked today when I got up it was 122??
It's suddenly been like this the past couple days. I don't know what I'm doing wrong and I'm so frustrated... I feel like a bad diabetic. Ever since the day I got diagnosed almost 8 months ago I've been trying so hard to get my blood sugars right. I try to eat good most of the time and exercise when I can. I drink water with every meal except breakfast, I have coffee.
Is this because I'm a female and all the hormones? The birth control? Is my meter bad? Was I on the metformin so long my body got dependent on it now I have to take it?
I feel like a failure..😔 I know you're not suppose to compare yourself to other diabetics but its hard... it feels like everyone else has A's on the board and you have an F. I'm the first and only type 1 in my family so I don't have any since of direction or anything but I'm trying so so hard even if my blood sugars don't look like it all the time...
Edit add: when I checked my bg after eating breakfast it was 130 so at least there's that ðŸ˜
Also the dr that misdiagnosed me, he was my old dr and diagnosed me at t2 because I'm an adult (24). I switched drs and asked the new dr for a c-peptide test.
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