I've been so frustrated by this for months now but it's really hit me tonight. I'm a pregnant T1.
I keep getting comments (today, from my OB) about "I hope you get some sleep tonight despite having to pee so much from third trimester!" But it's not just from the pregnancy for me. It's every day forever.
And then for weeks now, the pregnant women in the various pregnancy groups I'm in are complaining about having to eat less carbs cause they have gestational diabetes. You know, what I have to do every day of my entire life.
I'm being induced in 20 days. For anyone else in these groups, that would mean the diabetes goes away, that I don't have to pee in the night. But not me. It'll never go away.
And I'm so frustrated at just... hearing people talk about it. I have to imagine that it's as odd as being permanently wheelchair bound in a room of people talking about how hard it is not being able to walk while their broken leg heals up. As frustrating as it is to be blind and in a room where people talk to each other right beside you about how difficult it is to get around while their eyes are still dilated after the opthalmologist appointment.
And to the people talking, they are truly speaking that these things (peeing frequently and having to eat less sugar) are massively life altering and severely harm their quality of life. They (and, for now, myself as well) get sympathy for having to go through something as horrible as temporary diabetes and temporary periods of interrupted sleep.
No one sympathizes that I am stuck in this situation for the rest of my life.
I'm really down and, I guess I'm just looking for comradery.
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