How do I stop over treating hypos when I feel like I’m dying?

I used to be fine with hypos. They were just another bump in the road. I’d treat fairly well and usually level out. My lowest was 19 mg/dL.

The longer I’ve had diabetes, the worse it feels. I go into full blown panic. My whole body uncontrollably trembles, I get nauseous, and feel like I’m actually dying. I try to keep myself calm but I also want it to end as soon as possible, so I keep shoving sugar in my face.

I find the whole scenario actually terrifying and of course then I’m on the BG roller coaster, my BG skyrocketing after that. I continuously let my BGs trend a little higher than they should just because I hate it so damn much.

Folks, any tips, guidance, or words of wisdom on getting hold of myself? I wanna get ofd Mr. Bones’ wild ride.