Having a hard time

Honestly this is just going to be a stream of consciousness rant so keep scrolling if you don’t wanna hear me being a WAH.

I’m having such a hard time. I was diagnosed with t2 about 14 months ago. Earlier this year I was told that I was transitioning to type 1. Like, I took metformin for a year, then got put on Humalog and Teseba. I am constantly having to miss work because I wake up feeling foggy and my job requires a lot of concentration and quick thinking. Honestly I am having a way harder time with this than most people. I have nerve damage in my back from a car accident in 2013 which makes it hard to exercise. I just wish I could go back to when I was “normal”. Everything I read is like “you’ve got this” and “it’s an easy transition” from being a nondiabetic to being a diabetic and I just feel like the universe handed me one of the especially harder cases and I just want to give up. I’m not suicidal or anything, I promise, I just wish this was easier. I want to get back to being able to do my job every day, be a good partner, friend, and everything else I was before all this happened. All I want to do currently is sleep and be alone. I will likely have to go back on antidepressants as the Anhedonia is stronger than I am willing to admit IRL.

Any advice?