I just need to vent

I am fucking angry, and feeling stupid as hell. I've been a diabetic (Type 1) for almost two years now, and I can't behave as one. Some days i'm like, shit, lets go and get a perfect score, no more 200s or 300s. And that first day goes great, and the next morning I wake up way over 200. And once it happens a couple of days in a row, I get mad, and I don't even check my glucose, and I don't want to be a diabetic anymore. And I remember I'm 25 and I would love to live a bit more, and the cycle starts again. Fuck. This.

Sorry for the rant.

The cycle starts over today.