Feeling down / on my own

Hi guys, new here, I've been really affected by having to do this all on my own. I have no friends, and my family isn't very supportive. I live alone, I cook alone. I'm in pain, inflamed, joint hurting, liver hurting, peeing all the sugar but still starving. It's starting to take a serious toll on my wellbeing. I am 27 and I miss the days where I felt so alive everyday. I'm losing hope sometimes. I feel like I'm slowly dying and wasting away every day more and more. I missed my chance at life. How do you handle the emotional hell of diabetes, without loved ones to support you and keep you going? I'm trying to keep positive and accept it, but this disease its just exhausting my nerves..