I was diagnosed on friday. I feel like I know nothing.

And I know that I know nothing. I feel like I don’t even want to research it because I don’t want to admit that it’s happening. How do you wrap your head around this? What do I do now? What are good resources? I hate researching on the Internet because I feel like there’s so much false information out there that I shouldn’t listen to. My sugars were over 400, my A-1 C was 13.2. Where do I go from here? I feel helpless.