I’m not sure if anyone else has dealt with this, but I’m damn sure that I have. One of the biggest problems in my life, probably like everyone else here, is diabetes. Really just handling it in general. But there is one major issue with this, the overwhelming depression. This isn’t some dumbass karma post, or something to beg for attention, it’s more of a rant than anything, something I need to get off my chest. I’ve always been known as a very energetic, happy guy. But everyday there is a tugging depression inside me about my health. It gets especially bad when my blood sugar is uncontrollably high. Normally I would try to say, “It could be worse “ And people tell me when I’m obviously upset that “ it could be worse “ And normally that would work until I realized something. It’s going to get worse. There is no it could be worse, only “ it will be worse” in my mind now. And it certainly doesn’t help when my dad explains that I’m gonna end up blind and missing a leg if “ I DON’T CHANGE SOMETHING I CANT CONTROL.” And I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like it hurts me more to put on a happy face than to just be sad. Every other night where there is an issue with my blood sugar, I basically cry myself to sleep knowing I’m going to be blind in the future. But nobody else knows. My parents sometimes tell that I seem depressed... GEE, I wonder why? I feel like just telling a bunch of strangers who have my disease is better than telling my loved ones who probably can’t help. And my friends never noticed because they’re too busy caring about someone else. So here r/diabetes, maybe someone can relate to this, if you can, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for you and everyone else who has to deal with it. I guess I’ll just leave this here 🤷♂️
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