Hi everyone hope you are doing well. I've been having an issue this past month or two of very very stressful diabeties. Can relate or point me in the right direction?
Lately I've been the diabetic afraid of insulin . I know it sounds like an oxymoron but it's taken over my life and I honestly am running out of energy dealing with this disease . No matter what my sugar is or how much insulin I take I get so anxious bolusing. I am always testing and checking my active insulin from fear of dropping quickly and not being able to get it up. I can't eat carbs anymore people tell me I've lost weight but it's because I'm too afraid to eat. I will not bolus usually for 30 minutes after eating to make sure that my food is digesting so there's no chance my sugar will drop . I'm testing between 12-15 times a day it's pretty much all I think about I can't even enjoy things because I'm always feeling a sense of impeding doom or thinking about what to do if I go low for the millionth time . I've been a type 1 for 10 years and it's never been like this. I've had tons of lows before I know what to do; but I feel so helpless that my carbs won't work if there's too much insulin in me .
I've stopped eating most carbs , I wish I didn't have to ,. Every time I think about insulin, eating, or anything diabeties related my head hurts like someone's been punching me for the last month. Thanks for listening if you can relate please reach out to me I am running out of steam...
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